On my face, at His feet...

  Well, howdy yall. It has been awhile since I posted anything on here. So I will just be sharing a little bit about  what is going on in my world here at IBLP HQ. Nothing extremely exciting, but one must remember when He said, "He who is faithful with few things, I will put him in charge of many things."
  The conference season here at HQ is ramping up pretty quick for the Graphic Arts Dept. Its all interesting as the different depts all start throwing in their aspects to the conferences and before you know it, all the hard work of many individuals make a successful even! Big thanks to all those who put lotsa hours of work into it. :)

But, honestly, on another level, its been quite a trying time for me spiritually for the past month or so. It has seemed like my talks with the Lord seem long distance. And sometimes like my walk seems to have many rough places where one could easily trip and fall if not careful. I have looked here and there for the reasons for this, but it hasnt really seemed to show its ugly head. Then, last week, I was just doing some cleaning ore something, and I just remember the feeling coming over me, and coursing through me, "Lord, I need you." I think I even said it out loud. It was then that I realized that its not that I had been doing something wrong, but its like the realization, the knowledge of that truth, had kinda faded out of my vision. My walk was hard cause I had become, idk, proud enough to not get on my knees that morning and beg for His guidance and wisdom, and protection for the day. And I had become arrogant enough that I had forgotten where my place is...on my face, at His feet. The words to the song, How Love Wins, just kept playing over and over in my mind:

This is how love wins, every single time:
climbing high upon the tree where someone else should die.
This is how love heals the deepest part of you:
by letting Himself bleed into the middle of your wounds.
Etc...

I just felt so bad, cause I had not loved Him with all of me. I had kinda pushed Him away as things got really busy. So, today i was just thinking about all that, and I remembered what my Journey to the Heart leader told me (2 years ago). I had just gotten saved, and I asked him what to do. He said, "Just keep your eyes on Christ. Go where He goes." Ever since then, I have really been challenged by those words...to "go where He goes." He died to His will every day, and began it with His father, so must I.

So, thats just alittle about what I am learning these days. I hope that some can be encouraged as they decide to "go where He goes", which begins "on your face, at his feet."

I am determined to be a leader as a man, and in order to lead, I must be confident in my direction...I am confident in my God: I go where He goes.

Well, Lord bless you all! Good night! I mean morning!

Josh